but like the current weather, i am feeling quite abit worn.. not that the weather can be worn out but you know.. literary.

ospe was half bad and half doable. i am just disappointed with myself. each time these assessments come up, i think that i did enough work, but deep down i know i could have done better.. so why dont i learn from the previous mistakes and work harder the next time?

maybe i am just overthinking it or it is because i am still not adjusted to the fact that all i need is a pass.

pass.

50 out of 100.

how hard can that be?!

but even if i do reach and surpass that threshold by a little, im not satisfied. i never am.

i beat myself up thinking why couldn't i have done better..

it's obvious i should have prepared more and prepared better.

the one thing i dont understand is that

when people are genuinely interested in something, dont they thirst for more knowledge around that particular subject. why cant i understand something that i really like?

more importantly, why cant i remember something that i really enjoy? it's anatomy for goodness' sake. how much can one understand anatomy, as opposed to knowing it? it's just basically memorising.

sigh. im going to go eat a capsule of fish oil.

might improve my memory.

on a lighter note, im performing tonight with the med choir on med performance night. hopefully that will go well and i wouldnt sing out of tune too much. at dress rehearsal last night, they placed the mic too close to me that i felt slightly over-conscious.

hope everyones well and not bogged down by the tone of my post.

im okay really!

going to watch some youtube to relax for abit, then start revision.

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