Words of 1.30am
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
somehow, at an odd time like this.. i am here.
i have wondered back along the long road of the past.
i feel more confident in my writing.
i feel that the words have come back to me...
but my words arent the same as they were before
i cant find the ones i need to describe how i am feeling
what is this, i ask myself
what the heck am i feeling
a sense of regret
a deep longing
a frustrated defeat
can these words really put forward what ive been through this past few weeks?
when one is hurt by someone else, the thing to do would be to avoid further pain, right?
sometimes, i know i should speak up
i should let them know
but it feels bad inside, it just doesnt feel right...
so i kept it deep inside..
and then i wonder
whose fault is it this time
this time
that im hurt again
is it his fault
or
purely mine
for not speaking up?
late nights arent good for me
its 1.30am and im sprouting nonsense
halfway through writing up lecture notes, i came back to this familiar diary
i flicked through posts after posts
funny ones
memorable ones
photo-filled ones
and i remember all the good times
i am missing people a lot right now...
but im not complaining.
tomorrow night, i shall be seeing family again. it brings great comfort..
but for now, i should finish off this long-winded lecture about leukocytes and their pathology.
i wonder how im going to concentrate in class tomorrow
life in uni has its ups and downs.
where do i start?
i want to share again
i want to write again
i want to really feel again :)
Labels: deep thoughts, uni, updates
1 comments:
Awww..