Goodbye is the hardest word to say.
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
It's painful.
It's very very very painful.
As I stood waving goodbye with the tears rolling down freely.
I couldn't see anything.
Yet I saw clearly. As they walked away, they turned back.
Coke. WaiGor. Ems.
They came to the airport to bid me goodbye.
And I saw, as I teared up like a 3-year-old, they stood there, . . .
feeling the pain.
Leaving people is a painful thing to do, both for the leaver and the ones left behind.
Seeing my friends cry for me makes it all abit more harder than it already is - and the reason for their sorrow... is me.
Don't cry.
But we can't control it. Right?
Listening to Ah Gor and Coke cry = the strong, tough brothers of mine = brings tears all over again, because I know they are hurting inside.
Why is it so hard to do something so simple? All I have to do is walk up the plane. Pah.
Please don't cry for me.
I will be strong for you all. I only needed one tissue for the nose and one for the eyes.
Okay. I lied. I used up half a box of tissues. I took the tissues from the hotel, knowing I will flood the airport (says gor) and i've used up half. Haiih.
I should stop being so emo.
But I really can't.
My heart is so heavy. I just want to curl up into a ball.
No more "Hey, what ar u up to? lets meet up this weekend"
No more "Safe" and the air punches
No more random hugs, just because.
No more sudden bursts of laughter due to insiders' jokes
No more trickeries of 'bpoop'
No more bullying
No more pokes and teases
But more love
But more missing
But ... more thoughts.
I miss you all.
Thank you for making my 2 years in London an unforgettable journey of my life.
Wai Gor, you are someone I can never let go of. You took me under your wing, and now, I'm a tall bean sprout!
Coke, the best cereal there ever is [cocopops] = you know im joking. life will be less fun for yellow hands without you, bpoop.
Ems, my drama-obsessed companion. luckily, you prefer jay than mike he. our friendship will last ;)
Manj, remember that glint in your eyes that im always talking about! keep it on at all times, it means you're thinking of me. hahaha
Liv, nothing can tear us apart kays - not even fighting over Jiro!!
Keith, you are very funny. sometimes, that's enough but don't learn too much from Wilson. :p
Arman, don't break too many faces! see you soon!
Anil, err... errm.. hmm.. im joking. safe blud. you. are. cool. init.
I love you all.
LOTS.
AND LOTS
Labels: dedication, deep thoughts, friends, goodbye, memories
4 comments:
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this is no emo...goodbyes and partings are inevitable in life..it muz be especially hard for you, seeing how close u guys are..they muz be some reli cool people, u muz tell me more about them, awite? :)
anyway, hopefully it wont dampen ur mood, coz u muz enjoy ur time in Malaysia too..lots of other people who still care a lot about u..ur cousin, ur frens...people who care so much for u...
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hopefully ill see you soon..ill be keeping in contact regularly...
love ure big bro xxx
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you know u can go back there to look for ur frens? but yea.. life's like tat.
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this is no emo...goodbyes and partings are inevitable in life..it muz be especially hard for you, seeing how close u guys are..they muz be some reli cool people, u muz tell me more about them, awite? :)
anyway, hopefully it wont dampen ur mood, coz u muz enjoy ur time in Malaysia too..lots of other people who still care a lot about u..ur cousin, ur frens...people who care so much for u...