Prepare yourself for a very long post. “Everyone has a talent” So where’s mine? I guess I’m not the only one who feels this way. There must be a billion others who’ll know exactly what I am talking about here. I look around myself: everyone seems to have a special ability, sometimes even more than one. Good vocals, sporty, studious, volatility... Me?
I don’t play any musical instruments, though I can attempt ‘Deck the Halls’ on the piano. I’d wanted to play the guitar, but I was advised against it. And plus, it takes a while to start learning now…
I don’t have any talents in the sports area – as the only real sport I can actually play is badminton [without the smashes and slams and backhands, I’ll do okay]. This is where my fear of hurtling balls,approaching towards me in attack mode, comes in, and it totally does not contribute to me wanting to be good at sports. I guess I can do well in Dodgeball. *grin*
No artistic abilities as well, I can’t even accomplish really pretty pictures of sceneries or landscapes, which I thought are quite simple. I thought wrong. How about dancing and singing? Well, tried to make a pro out of myself but hmm… my efforts are in vain. No superstar here. Acting? Seriously, dream on… I really like it but I can’t keep a straight face.
Writing seems to be interesting. Currently I am underway in drama script-writing as a hobby. I started last year and up until now, I am only up to Chapter 7. There are 71 songs and poems that I’d written over 4 years. [some very lame I have to admit]Mmm, nope. My English is not good enough to let writing be one of my “good attributes”. No hopes there…
Academic?! No... No… I am not one of those people who can achieve top grades with their eyes closed [though some view me this way, I’m flattered, thanks, but that’s not the case, that’s not me]. I really have to work very hard and I must say, ><>Okay, the truth is out!>< I work really hard to obtain the best mark possible and yet I get the occasional B’s [or in NZ’s case: M’s and A’s (which is actually C’s)]. I want to be straight-A student if possible but… I know, I know… “work harder, get better results next time, it’s good enough that you can get A’s and B’s and manage not to fail…” yet I still can’t help but feel disappointed in myself. Trust me; I’m trying to change my lazy habits. I really am.
So, if I don’t have talents, it’s okay. Totally fine. No disappointments. No put-downs. No nothing. [I’m convincing myself here]. There were advices given which include “you’ll slowly discover your hidden talents” so there is totally nothing to worry about. I’ll keep trying… I don’t necessarily have to find my “talents”; I can just keep doing the things I love, even though I may not be good at them, because I enjoy them, right?
Just remember, even though we aren’t good at anything in particular, we are not failures.[Yes, I’ll listen to my own advice~]
Put that aside and maybe I should take a look at my personality. Perhaps I can be a better person as a whole, not in the ability criteria. Any ways to improve myself? Yea, of course! 1.lose my temper less often
2.be more observant of others 3.speak out more 4.be more courageous, more giving, more generous, more outgoing etc. It’s all more this and more that… and I definitely need to tone down my tantrums. The list goes on… no one’s perfect, right? (Unlike Tohru Honda, from Fruits Basket, she’s too perfect actually…)
Now, what else? Hmm… I won’t even go into Appearance. I’m satisfied with the way I was created by God. Though the occasional wistful thinking… … …and some insecurities…NO, not going there! CHANGE SUBJECT!!
This long post reminds me of an RE lesson in which we had to make a shield full with details about ourselves. One of the questions asked was – What three words would you most like people to remember you by? This will probably get you thinking, huh? [Please share your thoughts!] At that time, my answer was~Passionate Faithful Christian~ Will I really be remembered that way?
Not if I don’t take actions to show how faithful I really am to God! How much my love for Him is… Not if I don’t carry out His will. I have to live up to the 3 words! Right?
[In serious thought]
I'm bored now... so here's something for you after all your hard work coping with my rambling.
I love their dancing... ... ... ... ... ... AAA, I’m sorry, you’re still here. Forgot to say, thanks for reading. I hope this can be a bit educational because it might have taken up at least 10 minutes of your time to digest my dragging monologue. Remember, please share. I would love to hear read your point of view.
Yes, many a times we can be quite pessimist about ourselves.. but looking down on ourselves is just looking down on God's creation, right? It is good you know some of your weaknesses, it is how from there you try to improve. Everyone is unique.. and yes, the pasture is always greener on the other side.
(For eg, the house beside us looks so super FABULOUS I feel so upset with what's going on this side.. UGH!)
well, u have ur own talents...i've told u one of them...hehe....well, u dance and sing well....i know that....and if u want, i can teach u guitar anytime....and besides, u dun have to be reli good in sumthing that u like a lot....u're good enough when u're having fun...
I love flying low.
I love interpretations.
I'm cunning and unpredictable, try me.
I reminisce till dawn,
I dream till dusk.
That's coz...
I'm me. And always will be
S H E R P T S Y MIMOSA.
there's nothing more to say If you know me, you know me. If you don't, you don't
smtms t mtnl fr my wn gd.
Samsung VP-MX10 Flash Memory Camcorder. Straight A's. All the time. A talent.
No more natural disasters.
Chummy feelings.
Dance pro Hip Hop.
Stop jealousy.
Pig-Rabbit Plushie.
my efforts are in vain. No superstar here. Acting? Seriously, dream on… I really like it but I can’t keep a straight face.
Okay, the truth is out!>< I work really hard to obtain the best mark possible and yet I get the occasional B’s [or in NZ’s case: M’s and A’s (which is actually C’s)]. I want to be straight-A student if possible but… I know, I know… “work harder, get better results next time, it’s good enough that you can get A’s and B’s and manage not to fail…” yet I still can’t help but feel disappointed in myself. Trust me; I’m trying to change my lazy habits. I really am. 
There were advices given which include “you’ll slowly discover your hidden talents” so there is totally nothing to worry about. I’ll keep trying… I don’t necessarily have to find my “talents”; I can just keep doing the things I love, even though I may not be good at them, because I enjoy them, right? 
Yes, many a times we can be quite pessimist about ourselves.. but looking down on ourselves is just looking down on God's creation, right? It is good you know some of your weaknesses, it is how from there you try to improve. Everyone is unique.. and yes, the pasture is always greener on the other side.
(For eg, the house beside us looks so super FABULOUS I feel so upset with what's going on this side.. UGH!)