i never knew love could be so confusing, or even can i call that love? i was a girl who couldnt reveal what she feels inside but you changed that and for once i'd conversed in a way i'd never been before. the truth is i am afraid, i cant make a commitment not because i don't want to but because there is no way i can do it. i shrivel up inside feeling like im dying coz this is too hard for me to cope. i dont want to have the ability to hurt, just enough to love. is there a way to solve this? everyone who's been through this must think its easy but i'd never felt this before. this strong urge torn between doing what's right, or listen to my heart. you were there for me, always listening, made me feel special for the first time. i never noticed that he was there for me as well. i was blinded because i thought everything will be okay. i still never told you anything about how i felt because i didnt want to complicate things. until the bomb bombarded. but i still kept it a secret, hurting alongside yet i know it's for the best. happy when you're happy. sad when u're sad. but u never realised the truth. it was him i cared for so much but it slowly faded. u came back into my life and i took it for granted. the feelings resurfaced but i kept it well hidden. it was a battle between you and him. in a dilemma i always find myself caring for the two of you yet knowing hopefully that you two will never find out. i didnt realise it was so difficult, life was going well, because i know deep inside that as long as the two of you are happy, safe, healthy... nothing can go wrong. i didn't know how to respond in you telling me the three words. so i was idiotic in my reply till u got tired of this "game" but i wasn't playing a game. i was being myself, isnt that what everyone says to do? so i kept going being a good friend, because that is all i want. they... they keep telling me things. things about... u still being in my heart. are u? i really wasnt sure. how can i care so deeply for someone who'd i never talked to? i'm confused, deeply trying to decide wat to do. ppl told me about this, i never took any notice, didn't care but softly wondered if it was true. i wanted it to be true. but secretly stayed afraid. so what am i going to do now? who is it that i ....
i have two 'he.s' in my life, and hopefully it will stay that way.. this is why i hate making choices and decisions...i guess i cant always have what i want
does lynnxjiejie has lots of 'he.s' in her life? hehe... how about u cassie jiejie??
I love flying low.
I love interpretations.
I'm cunning and unpredictable, try me.
I reminisce till dawn,
I dream till dusk.
That's coz...
I'm me. And always will be
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Chummy feelings.
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Stop jealousy.
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do wat u think is right...'he' will understand...