Dear Aunt Agony,
(Can i just ask why you are called Aunt Agony? Why not something like Aunty Full-of-Advice or ... stuff... coz i feel more agonised to write to someone called Aunt Agony. $@#%! Ouch! sorry)
I think that I had discovered something really wrong with me. Everyone has a phobia right? I guess I wouldn’t call what my fear as a phobia. When a guy likes me, I feel afraid. (you must be thinking- what is wrong with her? Shouldn’t she be thrilled?) well, that’s how I feel. I think I am mostly afraid of how I will respond.
1) if I don’t like the guy, how can I not hurt him if he makes a move? What do I say if he shows his feelings so obviously? At the moment, my best idea is to pretend I don’t know. Or if he makes a move I’ll just have to “reject”, in which case is something I have never done before. (Well, that’s coz there’s no one who approached me with something like that, thankfully.)
2) if I also like the guy, and he likes me too… there’s no problem is there? Wrong!!! Yea, there is! This is the main problem. What if I like him too? What do I say? Easy guess, I know but I have a fear of commitment and not ready for a relationship yet… still too young. Are you thinking, “So?” or “What’s the problem here?” actually… now that I think of it, I’m not sure what the problem is. But if he tells me that he likes me, I can’t reveal how I feel. It’s just not the way I operate. I can’t bring myself to tell him the truth. And there you go, I might’ve hurt someone, again.
So, I definitely prefer to like someone who doesn’t like me back. But that hurts, very very very much. Very Much…
Hmmm, maybe I’ll just stick to being secretive and being tactful.
What do you think?
From Love-a-phobic Girl
At Saturday, June 10, 2006 5:05:00 pm,
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aunt agony... where are u? i really need u