re-feeling this
Saturday, March 18, 2006
i was reading through my old blog and discovered this entry.... reposting it coz i'm refeeling it.
do u see these tears i'm crying? do u see my face so sad, the frown i make, the empty echo of silence thundering surrounds? do u know what u are seeing? do u really understand me, the words u said, but never really mean the truth behind ur sweet lines? i'm hurting deep inside, and my usual tears no longer comfort me. i tried to hide so i dont hurt anyone else but me. but now it's too late, i watch u slowly drift away. i then realise this is what you want, a game you love to play, the world that only you control. these words come straight out not only from my heart, but also from my mind. i thought things through, i'll get over you, i'm going to survive. though u left uncountable wounds, they will certainly heal, only to remain scars in my life.. i turned to the Lord, i cried out loud, "It's not fair.. It's not fair.. Why are they hurting me like this? So far in my life, all i have done is
pray and protect.. like a shield, i protect but like a worn shield, i'm tired of protecting. it's hard not to judge them for their own actions but these particular peoplez, they are
hurting me mad/.. they put my heart on fire, but the flames became too hot for me to handle and i disappear. dissolving in the bluish flames of hatred gives me occasional but guilty joy, and how i wish that is exactly what i can do now, in my real world, in my own life." Dear Lord, please help me to rise above this hardship. i know my pain can be erased if i just trust you with all of me.amen
i seem to talk in riddles, but if u
read it closely, you'll know i'm talking about //////////////////////////////////////.. don't u dare hurt me anymore. i am retreating to safer distance. i will not //// _~ as i did years ago, maybe just not as much.
i'll get over this, i promise uhave i really?
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