Many people tell me that I am very lucky to be able to travel to many places at my age… first to
There is however, a part of me wishing that I can be more settled like some of my friends. I sometimes envy them for being able to maintain lasting friendships…etc.etc. Not saying that I don’t have lasting friendships, I still keep in touch with my primary and secondary school friends from Bintulu. But, of course… what I find upsetting is that there must be a time when suddenly the closeness we’d had will all disappear, leaving me feeling dissipated that I am left behind. There will be no more secrets sharing, the promises of ‘keeping in touch’ and ‘forever friends’ may not always be fulfilled. I will always be left in the dark and may be forgotten as well.
Perhaps it is not as severe as I am listing now, but I am just marking an importance in my frustrated mind. I know that my friends treat me with the best care and I don’t know how to show my biggest gratitude that they were always nice to me. I can never change the past or present because the people I’d met means very much in my life.
There are also countless advantages of being able to travel from place to place as I get to gain new experiences and make new friends. These cancel out the wistful part of me wanting to be more “settled” because I know that I can’t be more settled than this. Being with my family and my friends are the best things that are happening to me. Of course, once again, I would have to go through the process of goodbyes and keep-in-touches. This is when my heart really breaks and I know I will have to adapt to a new beginning.
Here, I would like to tell all of my cousins and friends that I miss you all and that you mean a lot to me… more than an excellent result in exams, more than winning a million dollars and definitely more than my own life.
Take care
Sherlene, miss you too!
Cant wait for you to be back in Miri again.
You know we will always share that special time together.
Enjoy the moment!