I was advised by a close friend to stop listening to our modern music today and focus on the Lord, praying to Him and loving Him. I had a lot of thinking done and realised that if my faith had been stronger, I would have no doubts to do exactly as she advised. I would sacrifice this want of music readily, without thinking twice. But the other part of me thought that I would still remain faithful and loyal to God even when I’m listening to those songs. Some songs are terribly written or sung, but these are God’s given talent, is it not? Maybe most of them are, but in some cases of insults and swearing… they gotta go! So, I prayed to God to ask Him for guidance that I can make the right choice for my belief. It wasn’t supposed to be difficult – and the answer may seem obvious to you. Last night, I had a dream. Was it a message from God? I prayed that He would give me a sign to do the right thing and to answer my prayer so I’ll no longer be in doubt. In my dream, I lied, I shot a person (named Lucas – don’t ask me why, but I remembered that.), I sinned terribly. Then, after all that, I prayed to the Lord, what is happening to my faith? Why am I doing all these things I know are wrong? Then I woke up. Frightfully, I feel as if this is an answer to my prayer, but I don’t know how to interpret it. Recently, I feel as though I am putting other things on top of my Christianity priority. Please pray for me that I will get back on track in my dedicated Christian life. I need advices from all of you reading this. Thank you!
At Wednesday, December 21, 2005 9:07:00 am, 
LX
The first good sign of your 'problem' here is that you realise it! So many other people out there are sinning yet not realising.. well confess and thou shalt be forgive. However so, I feel that you need to ask of God to give you the strength and will to correct these areas of your life. But you see, Sherp, you're not all down the drain. What is the point of listening to gospel songs 24-7 yet not living up to Christlike values? A person can be listening to gospel songs but still lies, be corrupted, has prejudice, unforgiving etc. So it utmostly it must be our heart.
Did I get my point right here? Or was I just beating around the bush? Hehhe.. lol
Oh well, Sherp! Yes, sometimes you just felt that you are losing focus on God. I expereinced it before. But, all we just need to do is PRAY. No matter what, praying is like talking and sharing your problems and experiences with God. He will halped you. He will shield you no matter when you are in danger. We are all children of God. Fear God and obey His commandments. Advices? I guess the right person to seek advices from is GOD. Because He is the One who will be with you and solved your problems. Lift up your burden up to Him.